After all that has happened, I can see who my true friends are and who will really help me in times of need. 

And it's funny because I also managed to reconnect with people and become closer to other people as well!

But yes! I'm glad that I've managed to nurture strong friendships with my friends, friends whom I can:

-confide in

-share my joys and sorrows with

-not be self-conscious in front of

-learn valuable life lessons from

and more importantly, who help me to discover more about myself, who appreciate me for who I am and who value me.

I can't stand people who only find me when they don't have anyone to accompany them and people who really trample on my self-worth and make me feel like crap.

Thus, I will surround myself with people who will make me feel happy about myself and about everything else and for those who don't, I'm staying far far away from you.

I also feel very lucky because I have many close friends to fall back on! I do know of people who have many friends but few close friends because they don't bother/ they don't want to build more meaningful/deeper friendships and it seems like with such people, they don't really care much about what you say, what's going on in your life but more like because they know you, they will just meet up with you once in awhile to see how you are etc. Such friends, I term as the "small-talk" friends. Haaaaa. So yes, I'm very very lucky :)

And also quite thankful that I'm dealing with things pretty well. I wouldn't want to do anything stupid because such actions might cause me great regret later and also, they won't provide any long time solutions.

To you, if you think that surrounding yourself with girls, dating etc helps you to get better, then errrm, so be it. I don't agree with your principles though. I think you're quite shallow and immatured and you seriously need to put more thought into your emotions. If you're not ok, then just say you're not! Stop trying to act all tough and happily speed dating etc when you're actually in a vulnerable state. And I think you're damn weird! I don't think there's anything wrong with having close friends of the opposite sex, and not everyone's like you, getting close to a girl only because he has other motives/ is romantically interested in a girl. And you're pot-calling the kettle black! You give other people pretty good advice but you don't follow your own advice. Annoying. Sometimes I wish I didn't know a person like you. Can't believe a person like you exists!!