I really like what Dillon says about the exams, that they should just be agents of socialisation! I guess it’s because I am just not suited to major in Statistics and thus, struggle with every exam that I’ve taken. Sigh. After each exam this semester, I emerge from the exam hall with disdain and pray that I don’t fail the exam and get a C in the final grades! Exams can be really so disgusting. Maybe it’s also the way that Statistics/ Mathemathics is taught in school, it’s taught in a too abstract way that only the really bright can understand, and we just do our math problems according to how we see the examples being down and thus, don’t really understand the fundamental concepts. Throw me a real life case and ask me to interpret it in terms of Statistics and I foresee myself fumbling and struggling to do so.
It’s quite daunting that I am going to graduate in less than half a year’s time and although it’s been something that I’ve been anticipating eagerly ever since I entered NUS, I still don’t really know what I should do. I already have a few plans in mind, but as to whether I can execute them, I really don’t know.
Anyway, I seldom watch television nowadays but there’s one show being shown on Ch 5 that I eagerly rush home to watch- Legend of the Seeker! I’m a sucker for fantasy show and this show is really awesome! Each episode just gets better and more exciting and the fighting sequences and backdrops are just simply brilliant.
I’m really glad that the exams are over, I can finally catch up on rest and get started on some things that were left untouched because of my exam preparations. It’s been a pretty exhausting week for me and I’m just feeling quite burnt out from having 5 exams back to back, so I really need the time to rest and relax. I’m glad to have had the support and encouragement from my friends during this period of time, with everyone encouraging each other, it just helps to spur me on!
I’m starting to want to detach myself from something because I’m starting to lose hope and trust in it. I thought that maybe things might be better now but the same problems keep resurfacing and I keep getting upset/feeling ignored and not reciprocated. I’m willing to compromise some things, to sacrifice and to prioritise but it doesn’t seem to be the case all the time on the other party. C was really such a disappointment, and now with W, it looks like it might be headed that way too.
I also wasn’t very impressed with O. Simply because I just felt quite self conscious and being a little stressed in his presence and not being able to talk freely as I can with my other friends. Sigh. He’s just too into himself and I wonder how to draw him out of that.
