Monday, September 15, 2008, 2:14 PM
It's really been that long since I last blogged huh. Time is something that I really need to learn how to fully utilise and manage without burning myself out but yea, it's really quite a struggle to juggle time to spend with family, friends, studies, church work and cca =( I think alot of my friends have not met up with me for a really long time but I promise to make time for you all when I have free time. For now, the priority will be on the friends closer to me.
And things are getting better for me on the school side. I don't know why I took so long to settle down but yea, I guess it's because of all my insecurities ba.
I am really tired and annoyed at being the one to always intitate things such as meet ups etc. haa, im just so tired la..why can't the other people be the ones to try this time round.
And to P, good luck! Think carefully, I don't want you to get hurt again especially since it has taken you so much to move on with life...
And I agree with Gloria's latest post.
"this is how a human mind works.stage 1.one day, you talk to this person.the more you talk, the more emo you get.and you guys end up sharing your deepest secrets w each other.you assume that this person is your good fren (on the basis that you have told that person abt your everything), and a very false sense of security.stage 2.hangs out tgt all the time even tho you hardly know each other.stage 3.then theres this day, you find out that the other person is not as nice as you thot so and you finally complain that your "good fren" has betrayed or backstabbed you.but the fact is, you have a very wrong concept of a good fren to start with.and youve only got yourself to blame.you are in stage 2.and that is how superficial your friendships are."
at the end of the day, i guess it's the people whom have been through the ups and downs of life with you, who can really accept you for who you are and who know you really well from the inside, who can understand the way you react to situations etc..these are the people whom I'll always cherish cos they've experienced life with me and have journeyed with me, and these are my besties. i guess friendships can't just be built within a day and it's also the chemistry that you have with a person, how well you can click with the person that will help you and that person to be good friends.
