I know that we can never be close. I'll never be able to tell you guys anything and it's just so hard to open up and to share my life with you. It's just weird. Which is why you guys will always be the last to know about whatever happens in my life. The trust is just not there. I hate big mouths. I hate to be restricted. The more you restrict me, the more I'll rebel against you.
I'll always be closer to my friends, and likewise, enjoy their company more. After what happened on Sunday, it made me realise why I don't like to hang out with you guys and that whatever I do, you'll never be able to understand or be satisfied. Thus you will not see much of me when I am free.