Saturday, October 27, 2007, 11:52 PM
I actually looked forward to my family dinner today, thinking that it will be nice to meet up with my sister after she and her husband went away on such a long holiday to the US, but instead, I ended up being quite stressed and was drained by the end of it. Parents putting stress on me, think I am spending too much time on church stuff which is obviously so not true and that I should cut down. And sister and brother in law keep on emphasising that I should do courses that will guide me towards my career path..as if I am not aware of that..Haa.. I think I must have looked pretty bad..Today in the afternoon, was on the verge of tears..
It's hard having to put up a brave front on the time and pretend that nothing is wrong and to maintain a cheery front..It's really so hard...
In case some of you are not aware of it, I have decided to change course. As to what,my decision has not been made yet but I do have some stuff in mind. And this is a really major decision and I am so scared. Been quite stressed this week cos I really just can't see where I am headed. Statistics is really not meant for me, especially since I really cannot make it at computing. Thank goodness for my besties. Bonnie, thanks so much. I know that I can always count on you to give me really good advice and thanks to Livia too. Really miss you girls so badly, it's just not the same without you here.
And I realise that whatever I am implementing now, ie do not expect anything so that I will not get disapointed..really works.. I was in a terrible state this week, but I guess you have been so busy and it's obvious that you don't have time to even just drop me a message once in awhile.
Oh well. I hardly have any mood to do anything too nowadays.
Looking forward to next week! Going to watch Stardust with Kel..
HAA....I really can't see what lies ahead..
