Sunday, May 13, 2007, 9:08 PM
TITLE: update!! Another sprit filled weekend..
Ok, realized that some people have been reading my blog and not leaving any tags. So here is one request, please tag my blog!!! Haha if not I would think that my blog is dead.
Thanks J
A lot of things have happened. And unfortunately I cant reveal the full content of all the events that have happened, cos some of them are too personal to comment. Let’s start with the issue that has been troubling me for 2 long weeks, and I was pretty down. It was hard to keep up a cheery front and pretend that nothing is wrong. Cos I din want anyone to find out what happened. It was so hard to be strong and go on with life. And it seemed that though I knew the root of the problem, things could not be solved at that moment of time.
Relationships are complicated. You think that you know the person well, but with time, people change. They are not who you think they are, and that is when problems surface. Honesty and communications are very important la.
I must say that I had anticipated that all these problems would surface and that I just did not want to face them, like I wanted to run away and not care about them. I admit that there was a large degree of hurt, and I was feeling a lot of bitterness. But life goes on. And I needed to confront all these problems. God was there for me, he healed at least 80% of my wounds and this helped me to build a more intimate relationship with Him.
The spirit of the Lord came over me when I was praying on Friday night. It was so unexpected. It’s like I was sitting cross legged on my bed and saying my usual bedtime prayers. And I was feeling depressed and troubled. And while praying, I felt this gentle force pushing me back. It was definitely not my imagination. I kept resisting and tried to keep sitting up, but in the end, the spirit of the Lord rested in me and removed most of the hurt that I was feeling, and He left me with a feeling of peace and happiness. God definitely comforted me and removed my fears. Definitely a large change of mood, compared to last weekend. This weekend, I was smiling a lot and radiated this peace. Thanks be to God for he transformed me in his love. And being filled with the Spirit gave me more confidence and understanding to lector well for Saturday’s mass.
And it seems that Im now able to pray more easily to God. Thanks to the Spirit residing in me. Im definitely going to the adoration room more often to spend quiet time with God.
And Im glad that we have talked things out and resolved most issues. Things will never be the same again, but whatever happens, at least no more bitterness is felt. And that we are able to move on. No matter what happens, we will live our lives with sanguinity. J Im glad that our friendship was not lost because of this. Things definitely ended on a light and positive note, and it’s good that we have cleared things up. If you’re reading this, I just want you to know that you will always have a special place in my heart.
Thanks to Lung, Bonnie, Livia, Shub, Sam, Den, Adeline, Grace and Xing Yan for being there for me to listen to me and to offer me advice.
And to those who showed concern for me and asked if I was ok. Thanks Mart and Brand and Duriz.
A quote from Adeline, “ Friendship is like a blanket, it is never appreciated till it gets cold. ”
I love all my friends!!
And to Pris, you make a fantastic shopping buddy! Cant help laughing at you on Sat! Had loads of fun! We definitely share a lot of common experiences, so it was pretty easy to relate to you.
