Saturday, March 03, 2007, 4:25 AM
TITLE: A lifelong dream just crushed like that.
I hit an all time low yesterday after I got back my Alevel results. I did way below my expectations and it felt so horrible. Still remember my civics tutor asking me what I expected to do and I excitedly told him 3As and 1B. But then when he said that I should not expect too much and that I didn't do that well, my heart sank. Looking at my results slip made me feel damn sad at first and I couldn't accept the fact that I didn't do well.
I know that I cant do medicine le. And it sucks. Cos since sec 2, I had been working towards my dream of pursuing medicine.And I took triple science in sec sch and even continued doing that in jc though I hated physics. Lotsa regrets right now. But it's too late la, I guess. Maybe I should have done Econs instead of Physics. And I should have put in much more effort into my studies when I was a J1. Yup. So now I have to start considering other options.
I guess that if I didn't do well enough to be able to pursue medicine, God wants me not to do that. I guess he does have other plans in store for me and that no matter what happens, I have a bright future.
Martina sent me this message which cheered me up alot. Thanks Mart!
" I thank God for the results you have gotten, for I know that He has been with you through it all and he has a beautiful plan ahead for you. Trust in him and give thanks to him. "
I'm definitely thankful to God for my results. Cos from prelims to Alevels, all my grades improved by 2 grades. and I actually got a b3 for GP! so not too bad. thinking about it, my results are not that fantastic, but they aren't that bad either.
My hp got flooded with so many messages and calls. Thanks to everyone who cheered me up. Definitely felt much better after talking to you all.
Thanks to Shawn, Duriz and Steph for calling me and being as siao as ever, was good to show ur concern for me though u guys were busy at work. :)
Thanks to Joe and Yang for their ever wise words. :)
Thanks to Neil and Martina who shared with me God's presence. :)
Thanks to my tai-tai club-Viv, Den and XT who consoled me. :)
Thanks to Livia for spending the whole day with me and pigging out like mad to drown our sorrows. :)
Thanks to Sam and Shub for calling and making me feel a whole lot better :)
Thanks to Adeline for showing to me how true a friend you are. :)
Thanks to Melvin who called me and discussed with me my back up plans. :)
Thanks to Alex who had a really long talk with me and brought me back to reality:) a really smart friend.. :)
Thanks to Bonnie for being my sweetheart les partner and being so supportive. :)
Thanks to Lung for calling to make sure I was all right. :)
Thanks to my 2 sisters who called me and told me that I actually did very well. :)
Thanks to my brother in law who called me though he had to rush off for a meeting to encourage me. :)
Thanks to my dad who was encouraging and didn't put me down. :)
Thanks to my xiao ti, Brandon for calling me so many times though I kept missing his calls to cheer me up. :)
Thanks to Martin for showing concern for me and make sure that I was settled down in SCC. :)
Thanks to Dillon for being the great friend that he always is.
Yup you guys made my lousy day into a much more tolerable day.
