Friday, February 25, 2005, 3:54 PM
Stupid! The O Level results are only gonna be released on Mon. So that is 4 more nights of insomnia for me. Ya..I've been having insomnia for like the past 2 weeks? It really sux..cos I like take 2 hrs to like fall asleep? I go to bed like at 10pm and end up falling asleep at like 12am plus..It sux cos my eyes will fell strained and then I would like feel so tired..Arrgh..I m typing like so slowly...So worried abt the results..I really hope that I can stay in NJ..If I get at least 9 points...I would be so over the moon! Cos I've like settled down already and NJ is like my 2nd home already..then there's the council stuff etc..
If I do well for the Os..I can look forward to so many things..Can like go out with my friends..get a new handphone etc..L might go out with me next week if he is free! Haha..Ya..if I dun do well...I seriously dunno wat to do..I would b like so depressed and devastated..Hiya..The word AJ just keeps popping into my brain even though I had not even think abt going to that JC..And I had another nightmare abt the Os..I dreamt that I got A2 for both E and AMaths and I got C6 for Humanities! That's like 10 points just for 3 subjects! I feel so screwed..Then I woke up with a fright after that....felt so drained..And that's how I worry so much..I noe I've been whining abt how worried I m abt my results..but oh well..that's just my nature...The Os determine my future!!! And if I dun get to stay in NJ..I won;t get to see L..and the rest of my friends I've made...It's so depressing...sigh..
I've not been updating my blog very regularly now..can only do so while I m in school. That's cos my sis have been complaining that I use the com at home too often that the electricity bill is so high etc..And she is not happy that I keep blogging..She says it's a stupid thing to do..Oh well to each his own la...
Then yesterday..I called L to ask him abt alot of stuff..WE talked for like 1/2 an hr..then cos I was using the cordless phone..my sis picked up the other phone twice! Luckily L was alert and he like kept silent..I dun think it was very nice..Sometimes I feel that I m treated like a litle kid at home...IT SUX!!!Stop it..I m already 17!!! Can't u pple give me the privacy I shld have and the freedom that I deserve!!STOP TREATING ME LIKE A CHILD!! For instance..if I stay up late at like 11pm plus..my mom will tell me tat it is late and she will tell me to sleep and then she iwill nag and nag and nag..And who does my sis think? Trying to restrict what I do? Like taliking to guys on the phone or like taliking very long? What the hell? How often do I do that? STTOOOPPPP IIIITTTTT!!!! I sometmes feel like I m a bird in a cage..trying to fly but I can't..sigh..ok I feel much better now after all that ranting...HIYA....
Ok..Things with L are going really well...I m quite happy abt that..Haha..
Shiok..3 free periods and the next lesson starts at like 2pm? Got so much time to kill..Haha..
